I'm back

Like 3 years later we are gonna try this again on independence day! I'm back and ready to blog! (I hope)

Enough is Enough...

Sometimes it's like there isn't enough in my life

Not enough---

- money for food
- work to pay bills
- gas in my car
- time in the day
- solutions to problems
- faith in people
- memory/battery in my iPhone
- strength to move
- will to eat
- space in my car
- distractions from those painful memories
- music that heals my heart
- shifts with my friends
- room to step in my room
- courage to say what I really feel
- tissue when I cry
- people to count on or lean to
- hope in general...

my phone

So after trying really hard to stay focused, I managed to completely reorganize my phone and its applications so now it looks pretty and has Twitter and facebook updates on push notification. needless to say my room is still very messy as is my car, I haven't gone to the office or showered yet. can't tell if today was productive or not yet :-)

Still not over blogging

So when I explain my problems in life to my friends and family, it always ends with "it's complicated." Do you know what? I'm so tired of the complications. I want everything to be easy. Do know what else makes things complicated? BOYS!

But I guess it's hard. I really want to please everyone, but in trying to please everyone, I tear myself up inside...

Here I am. I am going to try and start over with everything. Continue caring about others more than myself. Continue loving people and giving them the benefit of the doubt. Keeping my faith in the people I care about...

It's been a while

So just to prove a point...I'm not over blogging!

So I'm in my car about an hour and a half early to work, I just finished eating, and I'm bored and sleepy. I am actually listening to my music and came to the conclusion that no other music genre other than country has had books and movies based on actual songs, like live like you were dying became a book and Christmas shoes became books and movies...

So lately I haven't been eating a lot and I blame my hormones and my mood swings as well as my ever painful braces. I have had about one portion of carbs per day for the past 3 days...

I also got in trouble a few days ago for coming home at 3am but that is a different story. Well I may as well go and get my costume and head to work insanely early!

Can't sleep...

It is six am and I'm having trouble sleeping...but they are selling a water scooter on soot and that amuses me cuz I to lazy to swim at times...

Meanwhile I am still losing the auction...the price already went up to $300 and I am getting closer to my budget limit...I don't know if I should wait for the used version of this camera...I was also looking at HD burners which would cost an additional $120...not to mention a blu-ray player would then be necessary. Meanwhile the country is still in recession and I'm thinking I shouldn't be buying frivolities like this and yet I can't help but want to stimulate the economy :-)

I just found out about High School Musical 4 and while my initial reaction was to reject the idea, the storyline of a wildcat falling in love with a west high night really did amuse me. Not mention they are using the same writers...

Well, I am going to continue dreaming about my camera...or at least attempt to!

In the Venetian

Though my family has yet to really take a lot of pictures in our hotel, we are doing it little by little. Tomorrow is supposed to be our picture taking day! Sadness that our vacation is coming to an end...