Enough is Enough...

Sometimes it's like there isn't enough in my life

Not enough---

- money for food
- work to pay bills
- gas in my car
- time in the day
- solutions to problems
- faith in people
- memory/battery in my iPhone
- strength to move
- will to eat
- space in my car
- distractions from those painful memories
- music that heals my heart
- shifts with my friends
- room to step in my room
- courage to say what I really feel
- tissue when I cry
- people to count on or lean to
- hope in general...

my phone

So after trying really hard to stay focused, I managed to completely reorganize my phone and its applications so now it looks pretty and has Twitter and facebook updates on push notification. needless to say my room is still very messy as is my car, I haven't gone to the office or showered yet. can't tell if today was productive or not yet :-)

Still not over blogging

So when I explain my problems in life to my friends and family, it always ends with "it's complicated." Do you know what? I'm so tired of the complications. I want everything to be easy. Do know what else makes things complicated? BOYS!

But I guess it's hard. I really want to please everyone, but in trying to please everyone, I tear myself up inside...

Here I am. I am going to try and start over with everything. Continue caring about others more than myself. Continue loving people and giving them the benefit of the doubt. Keeping my faith in the people I care about...